365

April 17, 2010

Today’s 365 – a little bruised

it’s 00.28am and i’m awake as usual! been thinking alot today about relationships and romance, and i’ve come to the conclusion that it might actually not be for me. i feel like even though i love the company of other people, and i adore the people i spend time with, i feel somewhat relieved at the end of the day to come home, get into my own bed and be on my own. it’s a little unsettling to think that i might not be the marrying/true love type, as i guess i’ve had it programmed into my head since i was young that I wanted those things in my future. I’ve always been the type to rebound, too – usually, i’m not happy in the slightest if I don’t have a love interest. But since the breakup in Feb I haven’t been interested in dating at all, the thought of kissing someone makes me a little queasy and slightly itchy. this might just be post-breakup blahness, but it’s out of character for me so i’m intrigued to see where it will lead. we shall see!

5 Responses to “365”

  1. Cati Says:

    Well, in my experience I can say this is post breakup blahness. It’s good that you make peace with being alone because you can’t really be with someone until you’re fine being alone. It’s really great.

    I’ve always been a loner but I’m with someone really special now, even though the thoght of dating made me cringe when I met him. There’s a time for everything, and for now it might be the time to just focus on your photography bussiness 🙂

  2. Olivia Says:

    I cant see any of the photos 😦 Its making me sad!!
    x Love you Rosie, you’re such an inspiration 😀

  3. Robert Says:

    You are quite the contradiction. A young woman with an old soul. An artist capable of capturing some incredible emotions in your imagery, but reluctant to open your own heart at the moment. Commercial yet still on the edge of an ever more popular art form. You are one of those rare individuals who posses a quality that draws the world to you. I look forward to watching your on going journey.

  4. Dia Says:

    🙂 I feel exactly the same at a year from the breakup. And maybe it’s better this way. Because when you fall in love, it will be only for that person, not to satisfy the need of having someone.

  5. Kat Says:

    Hang in there and don’t worry about it, one way or another. I felt exactly the same way – couldn’t stand the thought of ‘dating’ or anything connected to it – just before I started hanging out with the guy I married 41 years ago. At the time, I really didn’t care about dating so there was no pressure, no neediness. He was comfortable to be with and I could trust him. It ended up we ‘had’ to get married – not for any reason obvious to anyone but ourselves – we just had to do it. 🙂

    I love your photography, by the way.


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