April 17, 2010
Today’s 365 – a little bruised
it’s 00.28am and i’m awake as usual! been thinking alot today about relationships and romance, and i’ve come to the conclusion that it might actually not be for me. i feel like even though i love the company of other people, and i adore the people i spend time with, i feel somewhat relieved at the end of the day to come home, get into my own bed and be on my own. it’s a little unsettling to think that i might not be the marrying/true love type, as i guess i’ve had it programmed into my head since i was young that I wanted those things in my future. I’ve always been the type to rebound, too – usually, i’m not happy in the slightest if I don’t have a love interest. But since the breakup in Feb I haven’t been interested in dating at all, the thought of kissing someone makes me a little queasy and slightly itchy. this might just be post-breakup blahness, but it’s out of character for me so i’m intrigued to see where it will lead. we shall see!